December 10, 2011
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Life keeps hammering on my soul
I’ve never expected to breeze through life without difficulties. It’s a cliche, I know, but it’s so true… we were taught that when others said “Why ME?”, we were to say, “Why Not?” Looking back I can see how I developed into a steadfast pragmatist. Although I grew up happy in the midst of turmoil, we (my siblings and I) learned to deal.
I’m not a true pessimist, I don’t expect everything to be negative; I’m just not surprised when negative things happen. What others see as a steadfast calmness in the face of chaos is simply an inbred and well formed fatalist view of life in general.
I knew life wasn’t fair long before my 10th birthday.
I’m not going to dwell on my childhood, except to say that not much has changed in 40+ years. You’d think I’d be used to disappointment and pain, the frustration of random acts of God and man detouring at best, devouring at worst, the well made plans of mice and (wo)men.
Today I’m having an uncharacteristically difficult time getting from “ME” to “NOT”.
But I will, no doubt. Time and tears…..
Comments (5)
Whatever you are dealing with “this too shall pass”. That is my motto most of the time. Sometimes I have to add, “or not”. Holiday times are often rough too on top of everything else. Blessings to you!
@TheSunnyC -thanks for the encouragement. This is an “or not” situation as I now have a second sister dealing with stage four breast cancer.
I can relate. What I learned is that again you can’t control things but you can control how you react to everything that is thrown at you. I have no doubt that you will get through this. I am so sorry to hear this about your sister. Wishing her the best and wishing you some peace as you have to go through this tough time. Cry it out sometimes it help. ((( HUGS))))
Stay strong.
That is the best thing you can do for your sister, and for you. Stay strong.
I am really sorry you have to deal with this.
I am so so sorry! What a burden for them and their loved ones. My mother died with breast cancer and my daughter is a breast cancer survivor. Blessings as you go through this with your sisters. I know that you will be strong for them while they need you. It is just so hard!